At søge sin fortælling. / To search for one’s story. 


Regnen falder udenfor. Fra lejlighedens balkon lyder en monoton banken; dråber rammer en hård overflade. Kaffemaskinens termostat klikker af; kaffen jeg havde intentioner om at lave mig får vente, for i mine arme ligger min søn trygt og sover.
Ind imellem bevæger hans lille ansigt sig i søvnen.

Nogle tanker svæver rundt i rummet. Om forfatterskab.
I længere end jeg kan huske, siden jeg var en lille pige, har jeg elsket bøger.
Og jeg vidste fra ganske ung, at mit eget emne, dét jeg selv ville skrive om, skulle jeg skrive, var kærligheden.
Men er jeg forfatter?
At finde ud af det kræver ærlighed. Kræver at jeg stiller spørgsmålet: er det en ambition født af mit intellekt eller er det forankret i mit hjerte?
Er det – i sandhed – en del af min natur?

Og i så fald, hvad er min historie?

Rain is falling outside. From the balcony of the apartment a monotone knocking sound is heard; drops of water hitting a hard surface.
The coffee machine’s thermostat clicks off – the coffee I had intended to make will wait. As my son is sleeping in my arms. Content and safe. Once in a while his tiny face moves in his sleep.

Some thoughts float around in the room. About being a writer.
For longer than I remember, since I was a little girl, I’ve loved books. And from a very young age I knew that my subject, were I ever to write, would be… Love.
But am I truly a writer?
To find out requires total honesty. It begs the question: is writing an ambition born of my ego, my intellect or does it originate from the depths of my heart?
Is it a part of my true nature?

And if so, what is my story?

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